Varamyr schreef:
* ㅊ * Going Back To The Past * ㅊ *
''You're intoxicated with madness and in love with your sadness. While I was falling, you looked the other way. You left me alone and yet, you're doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results. You're searching for someone whose demons play well with yours and you chose me as your victim, because you don't have anyone else to play with. From the day I was born, you knew you could be my perfect disaster and I could be your ever after. You may take the blame for my mistakes, which made up the blood in my veins. I should've known I had been inadequate all along, I just simply hadn't thought about it, because I refused so. But now I do know, I am not afraid to say you're a little psycho, addicted to a life that is so empty and so cold. Madness isn't just a state of mind for you, it's a place you're caught in. ''
''A psychopath? I prefer creativity.''
''I've spent my entire life to make you happy when all you did was leave. You made me desire the things which destroyed me in the end and you've acted up like a straight up bitch from hell. And it sucks when everything is doing fine then, it all crashes again caused by one of your many outbursts.''
''I know that I'm hard to love. Some days I'm all smiles and affection and then other days there's nothing but hatred and my so-called madness. Sometimes I get angry about stupid things and won't talk to you for days. Other days I'll think that you're the most perfect person in the world. Please, don't give up on me. I know it's not easy but I'll always come back to you.''
''I can't. I already gave up on you. Not because I don't love you and not because I don't want to be with you, but because not once did you ever even fight for me. Stay the hell away from me.''
* ㅊ * Newspaper, May 16 * ㅊ *
RIO DE JANEIRO — The Civil Police blasted "keyboard warriors" on social media after the mother of an 18-year-old girl, who police say run away May 11, committed suicide Sunday night.Belisária Gonçalves, 41, of Ashtabula, was found at about 5:15 a.m. in her Lake Avenue home, according to Ashtabula police reports and Richard J. Mongell, Ashtabula County Coroner's Office chief investigator. She is the mother of Ambrosio 'Ryder' Marcelino Gonçalves, who was last seen a week ago after a huge fight with Belisária. The cause of death Belisária Gonçalves is under investigation, Mongell said, but it is being investigated as a suicide.Ashtabula City Solicitor Michael Franklin said he didn't know exactly why Belisária Gonçalves took her life. "I suspect that the one light in her life was Ambrosio, she didn’t want to continue to live in the darkness left by Ambrosio's leaving," he said. "The police officers and prosecutors who have lived with this tragedy since it began in May know the toll it has taken on us; how much more did Ambrosio's mother suffer? Much more than I can comprehend."
When a good thing goes bad it's not the end of the world
It's just the end of a world, that you had with one girl
And she's the reason it happened, but she's overreacting
And it's all because she don't want things to change
* ㅊ * Back In Reality * ㅊ *
De second-hand smoke hing als een damp in de luchtstreek van zijn auto. Geen grimassen waren zichtbaar in zijn gezicht, om emoties te doen verdoezelen en ze te laten waar ze hoorden. Wederom werd Ambrosio gekweld door voorbijrazende herinneringen van het verleden toen hij zich bevond op het onbekende terrein, maar het mocht niet baten. Zelfs in hel bleef ze de jacht op het inspelen op zijn ziel en geest voortzetten, alsof ze het niet kon hebben dat het einde van haar foltering in zicht kwam.
Zwijgend verliet hij zijn auto voor de buitenwereld. Hij had het niet zo op samenwonen, laat staan op het samenwonen met zijn partner, maar hij kreeg wel door dat hij de laatste tijd zich steeds meer afzonderde van de wereld. Dag en nacht in contact zijn met iemand van zijn leeftijd, ongeacht het geslacht, zou hem wellicht goed doen.
Een laatste keer ademde hij rook uit vooraleer hij zijn sigaret op de grond smeet en aanstalten maakte naar het afgelegen appartement. Het was niet chique, noch ruim, maar hem werd verteld dat de belangrijkste faciliteiten in een huis aanwezig waren en hij zich geen zorgen hoefde te maken aan een tekort aan omvang wat betreft de opslag van zijn chemische middelen en wapens, dus hij had niets te klagen.
{en omdat ik leuk ben en jij mss ook, mag jij een plaatje kiezen voor hun toekomstige huis}